word `besties` is it really exist?

it's kinda tiring day. hmm.

just listening to my old NEWS songs collection while laying on my bed.. wondering about my old days...

i miss my hometown.

is this my limit?

nope. surely i could survive for some years from now!

but, is it a sin if i miss my old friends?

i miss my parents.. even niece at home.

when i'm alone, there're a lot random ideas in my mind.

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LONELY :|

i hate being lonely~

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hmm... it reminds me, when i said about `besties`, one of my friend asked, `is it -something about besties- really exist in this world?`

ofcourse -that time- i spontaneously say `YES, ABSOLUTELY!`

she asked again, `what is it exactly?`

`errr, yeah, someone who will care to you, will surely accept you whatever happen to you, though how pity, how disgrace, how evil you are... blablabla`

she just said, `hmm....`

may be she felt some disagreement. But the conversation just being ended.

Ofcourse, -that time- i thought the word `besties` really exist!

this time, is my turn wondering `is it real-best-friend is exist in this world?`

someone who will understand you 100%? it's kinda egoistic, but something that too perfect like that, i don't think that's really exist in this world :|

100% have same interests, helpful, caring, blah blah blah. even my sister can't do that.

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in college life, it'd be harder for you to find the real-best-friend.

esp for me, who far away from my hometown.

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chotto, i feel like my English skill's decrease? :|